Depression

I took off the day from teaching today because I had a weekend filled with horrible dreams, little sleep, and arm aching and numbness. I think the school year detritus has finally caught up with me. The administrators and students all expect instant help and responses from me. On the other hand they always want a lot of time to respond to my requests. I feel physically and emotionally beat up. My pinched nerve pain is a constant source of torment. I got the xrays from the chiropractor and they are not good. This school year has been the most draining of my life and my physical problems just add to the frustration. I wish I had more energy and less pain but I am doing the best I can to teach. It is a depressing experience for me to know that I can no longer put as much effort into education. I have always been healthy in my earlier life and this change of events the past year is devastating to me. It tears my soul to try to pet the cats and have my arm give out. I suppose all I can do is to keep on doing the best I can. Another blog writer said that I was a burnt out old teacher. Maybe there is a lot of truth to that but I hate that it is so. I despise self-pity but I appear to be a poster child for it. I need time to heal that I just don't have now at the end of the school year.