Values
Losing a furkid tends to make me reassess my whole world view and values. Let's be unscientific for a moment and examine my core beliefs based upon my 'gut feelings'. Is there a God? I think so. At least I have the feeling there is. The problem I have with the whole thing is that I take literally what I am told. In the New Testament Jesus said that what was asked for in his name would be granted. When I try to take that at face value I find that my requests that my furkids be healed are not granted. When I ask people about that they give all sorts of excuses like "God has plans for you that you do not understand." Well, I understand this. If the statement above can be taken at face value, then I am being lied to. Otherwise, something is terribly wrong with our interpretation of Biblical text. When it comes to religion and God, I just don't know what the Hell is going on, and that's the truth. I guess I will have to let God play his games and just ignore it all and do the best I can in this world. I know that this is a 'pity party' for moi but I do see how people can become atheists from experiences like these.
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I was really mad about the whole thing when I was sixteen and my seventeen-year-old boyfriend died. At the time, I believed deeply that God would answer my pleas for him to pull through. When he didn't, I went on to become an agnostic for many years.
However, when I opened my mind to the whole idea of God again, and got away from some of the literalness, I found that I experienced God's presence on occasion, and some pretty miraculous things have happened. Still, I won't try to explain why one prayer is answered while another is not.
I think God is very big, much bigger than human comprehension. I imagine that we comprehend about .0001 of what God is. I get upset when people start telling me to believe literal things that have been through numerous interpretations.
Anyway, I am meandering. I'm sorry that you are hurting.
One more thing...I think the letter from Flo is perhaps a divine coincidence...:-)
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